It's been a week since wilfulcait
passed away. There is still a sense of total surreality for me, like I can't quite keep in sync with the rest of the world. I get up, I do things, but they don't feel right. And I still can't really grieve. Moments come and they cause me to pause, but the tears just aren't coming. I miss her, I miss the thought of just knowing she's there and I still wrestle with my 5 year old yelling "I want her back". One of the best things about Sunday was that every time I looked up I saw faces I loved, or someone that loved her. And .. since then, I've been talking to/emailing folks I haven't talked to in ages. It's good to be connected to them.
Speaking of, my apprentice sister moirinknits
has made some beautiful beads to honor Cait and raise money for breast cancer research. Go look at the picture in her journal.
In two days lapsedagnostic
and I are leaving for Vegas to join my beautiful wife ani_moore
and my boyfriend russell_moore
to celebrate their 10th anniversary. It will be good to celebrate and let loose a little. Expect pictures.
It's a beautiful day - the sun is shining and the birds are calling to each other. Go, soak up some sun! Be happy