make_your_move | Struggling (Reply)

I've pretty much blown up every day since last Saturday. I just stopped wanting to be bothered to make the right choices. Two weeks into this and I'm already treading down the same road to nowheres-ville. It's insidious I tell you, the ease of not thinking. Food isn't what makes me fat, it's not thinking about what I eat, and when, and planning ahead. How does one lose motivation faster than a runner off the blocks? Even my husband, god love him, helped me give into a momentary craving for cookie dough. I don't think he's actively trying to sabotage my efforts, I think he wants me to be happy in the short term - but the long term thing ... just *bleh*.

Oh, and sleeping, or in this case, not sleeping totally destroys any willpower I have left to get out of bed and do the right thing when it comes to exercise. I stayed up really late Saturday night (which BTW, was *totally* worth it) - but I was a sleep-deprived monster most of the day. Sunday night we stayed up much later than expected when having a conversation with our teenage daughter. Last night the storm rolled through and it was the change in pressure or constant wind that made for a crappy night's sleep. So, when I woke at 6:15 this morning - I opted to try and get the extra 45 minutes of sleep, or risk being Mom/Wife/Friendzilla today.

So, today I've tried to be concious of what I am doing and eating. Breakfast this morning was cottage cheese - lunch a recipe of Curried Shrimp Salad from the SBQE cookbook. I still haven't exercised but I've been trying to stay off the couch reading LJ, and working around the house instead.

*sigh* Tomorrow I can always start fresh, right?