Where I've been lately

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Well, to start I've been avoiding LJ somewhat, for anything other than some one-liners and some light fluff. Did I look too closely at that? Not really, I've just been letting my weasels of self avoidance do all the talking, it's easier that way. Course, even the weasels want a vacation on occasion.



Much as I love the advent of summer, I really, really, dislike the rush that accompanies the month of June. Trying to get the girls out of school and extracurricular activities, planning around other events and obligations and trying to manage my own client-load has me fed up, tied up and burning the candle at both ends and in the middle. This week alone it took me 3 days to get to the market, when I really should of/needed to go on Monday ( made it to the store this morning ).

Things here at home have not been going smoothly. Q and I are having communication issues and revisiting some other topics that have kept haunting us for the last 10 some odd years and still not coming up with any new answers. And indeed, we have discovered that some of our well used communication tools are, well ... broken. In talking to much_ado and matthew_g this weekend they pointed out something very simple - "tools break". I tend to think of relationship/communication tools as handy, reliable and vaguely unbreakable - but that's a fault in my thinking. I got lazy, we got lazy - whatever it is, I forgot that everything needs a tune up now and then. In the last couple of days Q and I have had some really good conversations, and I've found a counselor that we're trying to make an appointment with for next week.

The other thing that has me a bit on the frantic side is managing the kids for the rest of the summer. A lot of times, folks and friends say to me, "I don't know how you do it. How you manage all those kids" ... well, the truth is, I don't do particularly great some days. I'm happy, I'm grateful that I have what I have - four happy, healthy rambunctious girls - but day after day after day wears me out. And I don't have a good plan for how to manage their days (and mine) so that we all don't lose our sanity. Swimming lessons are on the docket (need to find time to call about those), but past that, not sure yet. Oh, how I wish I knew where to find an inexpensive au paire.

The house is wreck, which goes to my disorganization in general. Messy house, messy head ... the fact they're related is not surpising. I'm hoping to get some stuff done around here this summer. Today I cleaned off one counter ... it's small, but it's a start.



Otherwise I have had some much needed tribe and social time north of the border in Canada, and I'm working on getting in some time with the Wife and the boyfriend. I have a new flirtation I've been pursuing over email which makes me smile and I'm working on some weekends away with Q and some possible alone vacation time for the first week of Pennsic.

So that's a short state of the nation, not really bad, not really good ... but there, there it is.

Comments

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Not an option. My girls are too young for that and there are too many freaks in the world.

Day camp=cash -- when you times that by 3 for the littler girls it's astronomical.

Yeah, I was like that as a kid too -- but now I'm the parent.