In a large number of ways, I find LESS emotional risk in sex than in demonstrating and receiving romance .
I can very much understand this, as it's been a big factor in my life. In my pre-marriage days sex was a sport, all it took was a willing partner, no relationship needed, no strings, sometimes even very little talking. I'm not proud of those days and rarely talk about it...but the basis of my promiscuity was the "fuck em and forget em" ... much easier than putting my heart myself on the line.
When I got into the scene I played along similar lines, not much discretion in who I played with. Eventually I realized how empty I was feeling and stopped playing randomly. (I didn't want to be everyone's meantime girl)
I still have to be very alert to getting physical when it's inappropriate, and am learning it is ok to simply show affection (no matter how many times I say I'm not romantic turns out deep down inside I am.
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Date: 2006-07-14 03:08 pm (UTC)I can very much understand this, as it's been a big factor in my life. In my pre-marriage days sex was a sport, all it took was a willing partner, no relationship needed, no strings, sometimes even very little talking. I'm not proud of those days and rarely talk about it...but the basis of my promiscuity was the "fuck em and forget em" ... much easier than putting
my heartmyself on the line.When I got into the scene I played along similar lines, not much discretion in who I played with. Eventually I realized how empty I was feeling and stopped playing randomly. (I didn't want to be everyone's meantime girl)
I still have to be very alert to getting physical when it's inappropriate, and am learning it is ok to simply show affection (no matter how many times I say I'm not romantic turns out deep down inside I am.