Quieting the noise in my head

[make_your_move]

There's a relentless amount of noise in my head as of late .... so much so that I can barely hear anything else. There's signal there, but how clear it is depends on the day. Saturday was a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day, which may have prompted Sunday's action.

Yesterday I did something I have not done in a very long time... I went to church, to the morning service. I don't remember much of the sermon, it had something to do with everyone having 'sin' - but it wasn't so much the sermon - as the feeling of sitting in the sanctuary, following the rituals, rising and sitting, being a part of something larger than myself, but not being lost in it. Despite having to pretty constantly keep the girls occupied, it gave a me a tremendous sense of quiet ... nay I say, even a bit of peace. For awhile yesterday, the noise in my head was quiet.

Somewhere, somehow without quite realizing it, I lost that internal connection to my higher power. Yesterday I think I might of spotted the path again.

Comments

[bittibuddha.livejournal.com]

I understand the feeling, and completely understand why the voices may quiet down in a place like this.

you are loved honey. you are loved.

I am very happy

[sierra-victor.livejournal.com]

that you're back on the path dear.

A., who hasn't been at all interested in going to church for the last few years, said to me after the last time we went in a wondering voice, "I'm really sort of pagan now (sigh!) but I feel better after I've been to church."

Exactly.

The voice, God, is always there. Church can help us hear it.

Which reminds me, I need to get my rump there more often!

S_V

the spirituality

[sweetmmeblue.livejournal.com]

I have been doing much the same thing of late. I went to shul both days Rosh Hashanna, something I have not done in YEARS. We missed daytime Yom Kippur cause mom was sick. Otherwise I would have attended part of that service as well.

*hugs*

[drwex]

Are you going to move to Australia?

[kernmantle13.livejournal.com]

That's hardly appropriate for holloween.

[make-your-move.livejournal.com]

That's me, I just love being inappropriate :)